September 22, 2008

I know this is an old mom quote but I love it.....

Before I was a Mom -

Before I was a Mom - I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom - I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom - I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

Monday afternoon blog

Rylee in the bubble gum jump house! :)

Rylee & Shelby- Jump Zone 9-21-08

We met a few friends and their kiddos at Jump Zone yesterday. The kids had so much fun on the big slides and all the bounce houses. I think they parents enjoyed it as well. :) After Jump Zone we hit up the pizza place. What a night!

Nothing much new today. KC is in Dallas - he should be home tonight. Michael & Sarah are coming to visit Thursday night. We will be heading to Tulsa to pick them up from the airport. Rylee is so excited to see them. Of course, we are excited to see them as well. Should be a fun weekend. That's all for now, until next time.......XOXO

September 20, 2008

Two is more fun.....

Hello there! Today we are watching Shelby. Rylee absolutely loves her. Can't seem to get enough of Shelby. It's funny, whenever we haven't seen Shelby in a while, Rylee will say, "I need to go see my sister Shelby!" It's pretty cute. She calls all of her little friends either "brother" or "sister". I guess she is making do since she doesn't have any siblings yet. What she doesn't know, we are working on getting her a sibling. I just hope she is just as excited to have a real sibling. We shall see. :) Since the kiddos are asleep, I am off to do some laundry! Until next time.....XOXO
Rylee & her "sister" Shelby! Lunch time! :)

September 17, 2008

Back to school. travel and not so good news!


Hi all! Sorry it's been a while since I last blogged. Things have been crazy around here. For some reason, Rylee does not want to go to school this year. She has the same teacher as last year and there are a few of the same kids so I am not sure why she doesn't want to go. Even now that she has been in school for a few weeks, she still tells her teachers that she wants her mommy. So sad.... Hopefully, she will warm up to it. If not, too bad. She is going! :)

Kasey has been a little traveling gypsy here lately. I am afraid it's going to get worse. He is up for a promotion and it includes more travel. MORE travel? How can he travel more? He is gone a lot as it is. I just can't wait.... (that was me being sarcastic)

I am been dreading this so here it goes. Thursday, Sept 4, I found out I was pregnant. Friday, I took 3 more HPT to make sure and sure enough, they were all positive. I was super excited! We have been trying for a while and were on our second cycle of Clomid. So, yes! I was SUPER DOOPER excited. Finally, our family was going to have a May baby. On a sad note....Wednesday morning (Sept 10) I woke up to find I was bleeding. Not just spotting, heavy bleeding. I went in to have blood work done and to confirm my fear, I had miscarried. I was only 5 weeks along. I was sad but I believe everything happens for a reason. Maybe it just wasn't our time? Maybe there was something wrong with the embryo. I just don't know. I do know that we are not giving up. We will try again this month and of course, I will keep you up to date on our progress, Hopefully I will have some GOOD news to share soon.

Until next time......XOXO